Location:Cedar City, UT, United States
Nowadays, carrying a book and a camera is part of my lifestyle. However, I had to learn over the last years the powerful importance of literacy on a daily basis and realized how to create an intimate relationship with words. Photography gave me freedom and a creative mind-set while literacy has given me enough cultural knowledge to persuade myself to achieve dreams. Today, I believe that a book or a photo can change many life perspectives; it changed mine.
Upon self-reflection, I have found that I have always had a strong personality and sometimes I am person difficult to deal with. My mother told me all the time to read and study, but the more she told me to read and study, the more I avoided it. When I was 10 years of age, in Lisbon, I became a student in Escola Salesiana de Manique mostly because my parents wanted a safe place for me, so they trusted my education to a private Catholic institution. The truth is, the educational system from this school was so conservative that students didn’t grow in the real world. I had many rules to follow. Rules about the way I dressed, the way I was thinking, about my relations with other people. I had required classes about religion and ethics; it was mandatory to pray every day and to go to religious festivities, but most important, I was instructed to not judge the institution. Teachers were in a different position than students, for good and bad, and students, no matter what, should not question the authority of that system. I didn’t feel connected to any of my teachers. In my understanding, if I don’t like the field that I am studying and I don’t get the purpose, I’m still able to learn if the teacher persists in creating a relationship. Otherwise, if I don’t have a connection with neither the professor or with the field, I feel frustrated and annoyed. That’s when general students drop; that’s what I did.
By the last year of my middle school, I was so demotivated that my grades were not good for what was the normal standards from Salesians. I was invited to leave the school and that was the first time I felt fired! Not bad for a 15-year-old kid.
I left private education with more power in my life so I talked with my mom about my intention to study high school in a public institution. In Escola Secundária Sebastião e Silva, I was happy because finally was studying my high school degree in a place I didn’t recognize as a prison. The question was, was I truly prepared to embrace a new school system? Was I prepared to that new reality? Today I give this answer quickly… NO! I didn’t know what I wanted for my future and in this new school I saw myself studying a bunch of general disciplines, nothing in concrete. I felt happy for my personal freedom as a student and as a person who was growing and wanted to have social life, meet girls, make new friends, but wasn’t prepared for the academic responsibility. One of the negative approaches I can’t forget from the very first days of high school was from teachers asking me, “So, in three years you’ll go the college! Are you ready? Do you know what major do you want to study? Do you know what do you want for your life? And for your future? Do you know? Do you really know?”… STOP! The only thing I could think was “I’m just starting this new chapter of my life and am confused about the present! Do you think I know that much about my future? I’m just 15 years of age! I don’t know.”
In two years of public high school, I didn’t learn anything that would benefit me academically. I became a rebel who wanted to stay with friends all the time. I wanted to go to the beach all day and surf, to go in a friends house to listen music and possibly drink beer, to organize nights out with friends and have fun. I wanted to stay with friends for this, to stay (...) READ MORE AT MEDIUM.COM BY SEARCHING "WRITING WITH LIGHT"