Seeing Through The Negatives

Seeing through the negatives, is so much more than a project title, it is an internal call, a reminder to see that healing is possible. I am a middle aged woman living in a world also obsessed with staying young. At 47, I still have not figured out why I feel younger than I am, or act, add to that the issues of being a plus sized woman living in a world obsessed with being thin. This is often a hidden and underlying issue, self-soothed with dark backgrounds. I have been fighting with depression since my teen years, and anxiety for probably the last 10 years, and a good unhealthy dose of people pleasing often shows it’s face as well. Then there's grief stacked upon loss, all seeking to be heard and healed. I struggle with my regional upbringing mixed with religious expectations. I feel that I am not crossing lines that I believe, but…people pleasing takes a toll on the work I want to make and share. I fight with whether I am too exposed or too sensual. I still have many tender areas that are in need of healing, in need of my recognition of them, and to allow them to have a voice. Some are visible in this work, some are still to come.