# 3 (ongoing project / after "HESTER")

I work with female models in staged settings, to create a world without any logical flow or narrative. I often have crazy dreams. Sometimes I try to write them down when I wake up. Although the memory is still more or less vivid, I soon realise that it is not possible to put it into words. Once it is transformed into texts, it becomes something else, something similar, but too concrete. What I do with my photographic images is to create a world that cannot to be translated into words. They are not "dream images". I am not inspired by my dreams themselves, but only by the impossibility of describing them. During my twenty-year career, 2 photobooks have been published: NOISE (2008) and HESTER (2021). The works included in these publications are not from 2 separate series. They are a continuation in which you can find my evolution, transformation and also what is consistent. I keep working on the same line, in anticipation of what is still to come. Although I do not start from certain concepts, I make an analysis from what I have made: what drives me to create these works, what has been accumulated inside me to keep giving birth to this kind of images? As I said, there is something consistent throughout the years. It is mainly an underlying anger. Where does it come from? What is my identity? Where I come from is not a big deal but living my life and seeing the world as a minority (as a foreigner and to some extent, as an artist) has had a great impact. It makes me smile to realise that, in recent years, I have become what others sometimes describe as "a nice person". Although anger is strongly present, I believe that it is digested in my body and transformed into my creations. Occasionally I still feel the urge to shout out what I am, in the face of misunderstanding or prejudice, but just like (my) dreams, it can never be put into words exactly. I don't give explanations, words or stories. My work is a silent scream to the world.