Of Her Love

(Ongoing) During the pandemic, Maa developed symptoms of Covid-19. I was terrified of losing her; my mind and body entered a state of complete shock. I felt confused, internally chaotic, and in deep denial about what was unfolding. This kind of shock became a way of protecting myself from the intensity of that pain. Our relationship is deeply rooted in safety and love. The shock slowly turned into a lingering numbness that stayed for a long time. She is the presence I return to, even in absence.