[What Is This Feeling]

Still and moving photographic media have doubled for the body since its invention. Clinicians ask media where it hurts, hygiene films give expert instruction on how to best control our uncontrollable selves, while at the same time art has given us methods to cope and mend. By following through on the logic that photographic media is body/person/material: discarded 16mm non-fiction films become media cadavers to exhume, examine and reanimate exposing narratives etched in the film as sensory memory/trauma. I am critical of the clinical gaze’s distance from personhood and use art to reinforce the connection of media to human experience, self.