An Invisible Monster

There is another me inside of me. I usually don't feel her existence, because it's so integrated with mine. But, when something goes wrong in my life, she shows up. When it comes time to make important social decisions, we are not always on the same page. Sometimes, she goads me into making unreasonable choices. She dominates me with powerful emotions of joy, sadness, happiness, and anger - like a child. When I ignore her demands, it causes physical and emotional hurt. I feel sick. However, if I blindly follow her exhortations, instead of feeling joy, I may end up hurting others. She's like a monster who lives inside me. When I imagined I could see her, she looked like a small creature full of vitality, like the yolk in an egg.