DISTRESS:
A series which attempts to visualise the experience of pain.
These prints have been left outside, buried, covered with growths of rust and salt crystals, coated in effervescent painkillers and some even eaten by snails.
Using different experimental techniques I attack the image surface, specifically targeting the parts of the body and mind causing discomfort. The methods used to damage the image are instinctive ways of self soothing such as stroking/rubbing, cleaning, gardening, and walking in the rain.
I deliberately use a small edit of source images of my body and face over-and-over again - each time rendering a different result. This repeated action lets new layers emerge allowing for contrast and comparison. The complex, fluctuating, individual nature of pain.
The ritual of reworking, photographing and printing again and again becomes a cathartic release; exorcising the pain from me and in to the work I create.
(These artworks are part of a larger project - to view more please visit my website. Made with support from Arts Council Englands Developing Your Creative Practice grant)
'Distress'
My body drinks in the harsh cold of winter
Setting my bones on fire
My hands ball up into blotched white fists
Suddenly and viciously
A message travels down my
Over over sensitive nerves
Sending my fingers shooting out
Dead straight
Rigor morticed in pain
Liquid churns hot in my spasming bowels
Limp sprinting to the bathroom
I watch through my open legs
As blood drips into the toilet bowl
A crimson red rose blooms
Then slowly dissolves
I am a clockwork toy
Wound too tight
The obsessions I neatly tidied away
Are coming out of their boxes
Quicker than a child’s presents at Christmas