IN A BLINK OF A SECOND

My life changed in the blink of a second. My father, that soul that I adored, my everything, was gone. My world stopped. Suddenly everything fell away, leaving me all alone in a devastated silence, in a profound and infinite void Nothing makes sense anymore. Nothing to look forward to. Photography has been my solace, my healing balm. Only in nature do I faithfully feel comfortable now. I don’t have to speak to try to find words I cannot find. I can let my senses simply feel, without asking myself if a sentiment is right or if it’s wrong. I returned to nature, wild and free, to immerse myself in her and in my photographic process, express my feelings through images. I just want to flow with the things that really, truly matter. I may find the way to heal from my loss, someday. But right now, the wound still burns too deep. Wherever I go, I look for you. Even though I cannot see you, I feel you in every atom of my being. You are everything; you have always been my everything. Your words resonate more clearly than ever. Maybe I will learn how to feel your hugs through the buffeting wind, learn to hear your sage advice and contagious laughter, in the silence, in the rain, in me.