Nirvana

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"Even if I had ten hands, it wouldn’t be enough.": 

Most married women at that time were in charge of all household duties while living with three generations in one home. Cleaning, laundry, and preparing meals for the extended family were all the mother's responsibility.
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Transparent Shoes: 
"Mom, what are these transparent shoes?" 

"Oh, those? They’re foot bath shoes. When my feet are cold, I wear and fill them with warm water."
My mother gave me a birth at home, not in a hospital and she didn’t receive any proper care after. She said that something must have gone wrong then.  Because, ever since, her feet always have been cold.
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My mother lives in the countryside and grows vegetables in a small garden. 
One day, she said, "Perhaps this is the first time I've ever done something just for myself."
So many women of her time lived not for themselves, but as wives, as mothers- always doing for someone else.
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Nam-hae Funeral Home calendar:
At some point, a promotional calendar from a funeral home started hanging in my parents' house. And every year, around the end of the year, a new calendar would be delivered.
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Nirvana: 
Someday, the day will come when the bond between my mother and me comes to an end. Whether we meet again in the next life, or if my mother enters Nirvana and we part forever, I hope she will live a happier life than now... Good bye, Mom.
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