Searching for Michael Jackson

I was ten years old the first time I heard Michael Jackson’s falsetto voice singing “I Want You Back.” I had a visceral reaction to his voice and everything about him. I still do. His soulful eyes, his unique dancing, his boundless creativity and spiritual way of living life all mesmorized me. Michael was a force field of energy and a creative genius, who, with his vision, would conceive and execute his ideas through his lifelong habit of discipline. Michael Jackson died on June 25, 2009 causing a shift inside of me. I have delayed reactions to my feelings and emotions and this event affected me no differently. I couldn’t quite process that he died and I was injured at work on a stunt job that same day. I felt sadness and confusion while I began an intense research of who this man truly was. As I have been Michaeling since his death, I have had a profound awakening in understanding who this man was, not what the media wanted us to believe. When I saw him on stage during the Victory tour in 1984, I could feel his magic. So magical that sometimes I wondered if he was real. I never met him yet I cried when he was gone like he was one of my closest friends. I knew him through his songs, his dance. The world may have gone a little dimmer and something shifted in me on June 25, 2009 when this creative light left us. This is my homage to MJ. In my humble opinion, being an advocate of Michael Jackson is an honor and I will defend him until my last exhale.