Reading make me feel asleep

I don't like reading honestly, or it call a phobia about reading maybe. I believed word is not the only way to make another one understand what you thinking about , why not a picture or photos ? my mom and dad told me the golden rules of success should be study hard in school. I feel pain and it become a anxiety disorder. i found the silent in dark room can make me have a second of relaxation. The smell of the chemical make me addicted.