STILL LIFE

It is a project about an artist being „in process”, in those moments „in between”, when I am trying to create. I usually am working with myself in self staged photography, where I need to face my own shame and cross my boundaries. Am I censoring myself, when I am editing pictures? I need to take all of the decisions regarding display, presentation, gallery and my own image as a women, artist. And the real process is to – face myself and the million decisions. In all those „dead” moments, when I do not create, I need to face bodily functions, daily routines and my own limitations. All those imaginary, surreal images, come when I see real set up or a real scene. I create photographs as if I was painting, creating a movie set or a space, that actually never exists in reality. In this context it always leaves me lonely, before I share my vision with the audience. And even then, I can never be sure, if we meet at the same place and with same ideas. In that sense my “art making” requires loneliness to make own decisions. Series “Still life” is talking of a loneliness of an artist, who is working on a new project. I am questioning weather am I the artist when I am working, or do I create being somewhere „in between” Series „Still life” is taken in a studio space in Baer Art Centre, where I spent my Artistic Residency. When I am trying to find inspiration, I always find myself first and that could be tough confrontation. And anywhere I will go to create, I always take myself with me. It’s Blessing and burden.