“I’m dirty, infinitely dirty…" is inspired by Franz Kafka's love letters to Milena Jesenska. It highlights and brings attention to the issues of changing mental states and negative self-talk that can be hurtful to our ability to create safe and lasting relationships with others and ourselves.
This work is created in a delicate sand technique where dry sand particles are painstakingly manipulated on a backlit glass surface to achieve a desired image. And then photographed to preserve the existing status quo of this unstable, tactile and analogue medium before it is destroyed by accident or on purpose. Photography here takes the role of a reliable fixative and a creator of durable images, otherwise hard to preserve and expose.
This seemingly uncontrollable yet challenging medium is used to portray the fragile and dramatic nature of human existence in many ways paralleled to the fate of a sand particle.
In particular “I’m dirty, infinitely dirty” reflects the multi-layered emotional state of the human mind that has fallen in love, but doesn’t feel worthy of it.
